i AM myself
I hate looking myself in the mirror,I hate knowing I have fear.
I hate seeing what isn't there,I hate feeling that I am scared.
I hate believing what isn't true,I hate believing and trusting you.
I hate crying myself to sleep,
Forgive me for I have dreams.
I feel left out and all alone,With no one to call my own.
My eyes are red and I cry blood,
Please help me or I'll cry a flood.
My friends see what I let them see,
If they only could see the true side of me.
And as I die inside with pain,
Please don't think that I'm insane.
Cause believe it or not I have a heart,
That's been slowly torn apart
Cant you see that i love you so?
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Wednesday
today was juz like any wednesday,the whole day was dead...
for PE mr nordin made fun of jy with her ermm....was paiseh for her la...
had a maths test wich i did damn badly despite studying hard for it..
i actually did the tys qns...then today was like wth when i saw the qns...
then there was the chem tutorials tat...yar...surprisingly it was so benificial...
i finally understood wat is electrochem abt...after debora n ms khoo's explanation...
actually mi n pauline were suppose to be in wilson's grp for the discussion...
but as usual.he was rattling non-stop abt ANTM with the rest..blah..blah...
irritated, i juz stood up n joined daphne's grp...
kinda attitude rite...
then after sch we had lunch n mi n jy study abit la...
okay jy slept most of the time...
nice weather to slp...then chit-chat abit...
there was tis qns tat jy ask tat i din answer honestly...
dunno why i din tell the truth..
i've been wondering why isit tat u dun talk to mi...
can't we even be friends?
is as though u purposly treat mi as transparent...
as though i am never there...
i dunno y..i keep gettin upset...i keep asking y...
have i really let it go???
i dunno..i tot i did....
tired of everything tat i have to do...
the seasports carnival is coming up...
then the many tests n assignments...
then there is the kayak com coming up...
also there is so many other things i have to worry abt...
i wanna be free
the origin.11:58 PM
Tuesday
today is my first time blogging....i created tis blog to write all my pent up feelin....
there are so many things tat i want to say....
there is juz so much tat is troubling mi...
everyday i have to put up a strongfront for everyone....
i'm tired, i juz wasnt to be happy n do wat i want ....
is tat so difficult....
lost
the origin.12:43 AM
i AM myself
alicia ang
19 yrs old
28th July 88
smps, hscs, tpjc, SIM- economic n management
likes:)
swimming, jogging, cycling, bladding, canoeing
reading, listening to music, dancing
chilling out with my friends
tpjc canoeing team ROCK!!!
tpjc 05S04 ROCK!!!
SIM Dragons rocks!!!
dislikes:(
ppl who are nt straight forward
ppl who pretend to be who they are not
being the middle person
being taken for granted
being left out
**wish list**
to get gd A-level results (my foot!))
to have FUN
to get a job ( ntuc Lhub)
to get my driving licence (got it)
to get my bag (been wanting to do so since the begining of the yr)
to chill out with my friends
to go clubbing as and when i like(like its ever possible)
to get into uni( got into one)
to be HAPPY (it has been so long since i'm really happy)
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