i AM myself
I hate looking myself in the mirror,I hate knowing I have fear.
I hate seeing what isn't there,I hate feeling that I am scared.
I hate believing what isn't true,I hate believing and trusting you.
I hate crying myself to sleep,
Forgive me for I have dreams.
I feel left out and all alone,With no one to call my own.
My eyes are red and I cry blood,
Please help me or I'll cry a flood.
My friends see what I let them see,
If they only could see the true side of me.
And as I die inside with pain,
Please don't think that I'm insane.
Cause believe it or not I have a heart,
That's been slowly torn apart
Cant you see that i love you so?
Monday, May 01, 2006
sunday 29/4
haha...on sat i went to cut my hair at far east with jy n xue fang....
waited damn long for jy la...
now i noe muz make extra allowance...if nt it will be a long wait...
haha...
but now seeing my fringe so short...its kinda weird....
nt use to it at all...haha...will see wat the others have to say...
then rushed to get some stuff n went for church....
got home n started slacking again....
haha...did the flowers for mother's day while watching para para...
on sunday morn...went out for breakfast then did some grocery shopping...
hehe...manged to rush for vanessa's bitrthday celebration at sherlyn's place..
it was quite interesting i wld say...
had to rush home to change for dinner...
we went to Spring Court for grandpa's b'dae celebration...
but everyone eas attitude there...uncle,aunt,even grandpa...
was kinda a mesirable dinner cos aunt left halfway...
i end up being the source of entertainment and also the one trying to clear up all the food....
we played a bit n the waiter laughed with us too...( he was kinda shuai)
haha...then waited for a hell of a time for a taxi...
finally got hm...
today yaya was very upset...she went to rebond her hair but instead they burnt her hair...
then had to cut half off...
she was crying n crying...
but wat happened was really unreasonable...if i had gone to the salon with her,
i think i wld have bashed up the hair stylist....i think i wld have gotten into a fight with her
but yaya is really feelin very upset abt hair...whish i can do smthin to make her feel better...
hai...common test is near...but i still can't get myself in the studying mode...
there is tis gp essay tat we have to write...but ya...lazy...
then still got all the maths revision haven't do...sian la...
haha...also i think i put myself i a horrible position...
was msging Gless abt the cannoe rental...
when sarah n jon saw tat i was asking him n not them...they started a scandle for mi...
they even told dennis to spread la...
so i'm soooo dead...
n ya...i still can't get myself to forget abt somethings...
really hate it when u treat mi like a stranger....
i dunno y...maybe its juz mi...i'm thinking too much...
sometimes i juz wished all tis never happened b4...
then i dun have to be so fan....
i juz can't get myself to get over it....
y...someone pls tell mi y...
okay..better go n slp now...tmr got to get up early
got to start doin work le...if nt will juz die when i return to sch...
a better tmr
the origin.12:51 AM
i AM myself
alicia ang
19 yrs old
28th July 88
smps, hscs, tpjc, SIM- economic n management
likes:)
swimming, jogging, cycling, bladding, canoeing
reading, listening to music, dancing
chilling out with my friends
tpjc canoeing team ROCK!!!
tpjc 05S04 ROCK!!!
SIM Dragons rocks!!!
dislikes:(
ppl who are nt straight forward
ppl who pretend to be who they are not
being the middle person
being taken for granted
being left out
**wish list**
to get gd A-level results (my foot!))
to have FUN
to get a job ( ntuc Lhub)
to get my driving licence (got it)
to get my bag (been wanting to do so since the begining of the yr)
to chill out with my friends
to go clubbing as and when i like(like its ever possible)
to get into uni( got into one)
to be HAPPY (it has been so long since i'm really happy)
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