i AM myself
I hate looking myself in the mirror,I hate knowing I have fear.
I hate seeing what isn't there,I hate feeling that I am scared.
I hate believing what isn't true,I hate believing and trusting you.
I hate crying myself to sleep,
Forgive me for I have dreams.
I feel left out and all alone,With no one to call my own.
My eyes are red and I cry blood,
Please help me or I'll cry a flood.
My friends see what I let them see,
If they only could see the true side of me.
And as I die inside with pain,
Please don't think that I'm insane.
Cause believe it or not I have a heart,
That's been slowly torn apart
Cant you see that i love you so?
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
tuesday 2/5
hai...i feel like a pig for the past few days...
been at home slacking...eating...slpin...eating...
haha...yesterday had tution till quite late...n was tired...
haha...at least i managed to do some homework n study a little...
did gp essay n even some maths n bio...
then today in sch was damn boring la...
all tutorial...then my fringe was so damn irritating...
eventhough everyone says tat its nice...i still think it look funnie...
then i very self-concious...n always look away...
hopefully tmr will be better...haha
then today after sch did maths in sch...finally understood wat c.r.v
is all abt...haha...normal distribution?
then went to eat prata...taked abt alot of things....
i oso found out tat other houses actually carry out trials to select their 8 best runners
for the 8 x 100m interhouse...
then i dawn on mi...our house leh..
feng is the one deciding...i think is more like she choose who she wants to be in the team....
i dunno y...but i juz dun like the way she does things...
so baised...i mean is rite tat she picks fast runner...but shld be fair to the rest in the
orange house too rite...ya...
okay maybe i'm over reacting abit...
maybe u can see y....
anyway...i din do much work at hm...was stonning practically most of the time...
watch a bit of the tv...sounds alien...since i've nt for a long time....
haha...i'm tierd of myself...
honestly i'm tired physically n mentally...
it may sound weird...despite the weariness...i want to run...
i hope can run 2.4km tmr...want to beat my timing.
hai...kayaking has once been a part of mi....
now i wonder if it actually true...trng has become very slack...
alex is like i dunno wat he is doin...
the team is too bonded to know where is the line they are nt supposed to cross...
i dun see it in a bad way of course...
its gd tat we are bonded...but is really too close...
the vision of winning is fading for mi n sarah...
where has the zest n passion n determination to pressed on all the way...
i really dunno where it has gone to..
i feel really lost...
juz as there was a glimmer of hope...u took it away...
leaving behind nothin but darkness for mi to dwell in..
i hope tat things will get better ...
i really hope...
there are things tat are beyond one's control n its these things tat can drive a person crazy...
ok...really need to slp now...
all the best
the origin.12:12 AM
i AM myself
alicia ang
19 yrs old
28th July 88
smps, hscs, tpjc, SIM- economic n management
likes:)
swimming, jogging, cycling, bladding, canoeing
reading, listening to music, dancing
chilling out with my friends
tpjc canoeing team ROCK!!!
tpjc 05S04 ROCK!!!
SIM Dragons rocks!!!
dislikes:(
ppl who are nt straight forward
ppl who pretend to be who they are not
being the middle person
being taken for granted
being left out
**wish list**
to get gd A-level results (my foot!))
to have FUN
to get a job ( ntuc Lhub)
to get my driving licence (got it)
to get my bag (been wanting to do so since the begining of the yr)
to chill out with my friends
to go clubbing as and when i like(like its ever possible)
to get into uni( got into one)
to be HAPPY (it has been so long since i'm really happy)
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