i AM myself
I hate looking myself in the mirror,I hate knowing I have fear.
I hate seeing what isn't there,I hate feeling that I am scared.
I hate believing what isn't true,I hate believing and trusting you.
I hate crying myself to sleep,
Forgive me for I have dreams.
I feel left out and all alone,With no one to call my own.
My eyes are red and I cry blood,
Please help me or I'll cry a flood.
My friends see what I let them see,
If they only could see the true side of me.
And as I die inside with pain,
Please don't think that I'm insane.
Cause believe it or not I have a heart,
That's been slowly torn apart
Cant you see that i love you so?
Sunday, June 04, 2006
sunday 4/6
haiz..finally have time to blog...
its been a long n tiring wk...
let see...on thurs (1/6) we had chem-gp-chem...
chem was au usual...ms khoo singing lullaby...can slp la...
we onli finished the revision quiz...
then have to go for gp...
the next chem session...nobody went...so onli i go...
so pai seh.. i'm the onli one la...
but nevermind...i learnt quite a bit...especially to think fast...
then went to eat lunch with melissa n choo...
after sending nick to tuition...walked ard east point for a while b4 going to study...
2/6....woke up late...n was late for the collection of maths paper....
the marks are so damn dissapointing la....
its like for the first time i studied so hard then get this kind of results....
my maths has never been lower then this b4 la...
sad....
all the careless mistakes really killed mi tis time...
i think i can juz go n kill myself... hai..sad sia...
after tat still got to strggle on whether to go for trng a nt...
went in the end n took k2 with huiying...
althought we were progressing better thena expected...
i still fill smth is amiss...maybe is because of sarah....
(why did u leave mi when i needed u the most.....)
sat 3/6...
went for trng in the morning...wass a bit late due to the new route tat we take...
then we chiong quite a bit...
got a lot of ppl...so damn unstable...
then very sian today cos both mi n huiying did nt slp well...
so all in all...trng kinda sux for us....
so rush hm to change for church...
haha...today the let us watch sky high...
lesson- be who u are...everyone is precious n special in their own way in god's eye...
yes...n sermon was so meaningful...it really touched mi deeply...
it was as though god knew wat was troubling mi...n he was like speaking to mi....
it felt great knowing god is always there for us...
have been doin the laundry n ironing n cooking...
kinda sian n my body is aching like shit...but still i'm nt alsp...
okay...i better get some slp...will updat whenever i can....
where are u when i need u....
the origin.2:39 AM
i AM myself
alicia ang
19 yrs old
28th July 88
smps, hscs, tpjc, SIM- economic n management
likes:)
swimming, jogging, cycling, bladding, canoeing
reading, listening to music, dancing
chilling out with my friends
tpjc canoeing team ROCK!!!
tpjc 05S04 ROCK!!!
SIM Dragons rocks!!!
dislikes:(
ppl who are nt straight forward
ppl who pretend to be who they are not
being the middle person
being taken for granted
being left out
**wish list**
to get gd A-level results (my foot!))
to have FUN
to get a job ( ntuc Lhub)
to get my driving licence (got it)
to get my bag (been wanting to do so since the begining of the yr)
to chill out with my friends
to go clubbing as and when i like(like its ever possible)
to get into uni( got into one)
to be HAPPY (it has been so long since i'm really happy)
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