i AM myself
I hate looking myself in the mirror,I hate knowing I have fear.
I hate seeing what isn't there,I hate feeling that I am scared.
I hate believing what isn't true,I hate believing and trusting you.
I hate crying myself to sleep,
Forgive me for I have dreams.
I feel left out and all alone,With no one to call my own.
My eyes are red and I cry blood,
Please help me or I'll cry a flood.
My friends see what I let them see,
If they only could see the true side of me.
And as I die inside with pain,
Please don't think that I'm insane.
Cause believe it or not I have a heart,
That's been slowly torn apart
Cant you see that i love you so?
Sunday, July 30, 2006
well...its sunday now...
haha...on fri the 28th...it was my birthday...
so happy bdae to mi...
hai...18yrs old already...
so can legally buy alcohol, cigarettes, go clubbing...
haha...but tat takes away the thrill of it...
anyway...got a lot to blog abt...
28/7
on fri,okay at the stroke of twelve...received a lot of well wishes...
haha...happy to hear from them...especially those who i've not really been in contact with...
guess wat eli remembered my bdae...( a pri sch friend of mine)
haha...then in the aft we went for lunch at pizza hut...
pauline, jy, ber, amanda, elvin, eng han, fabian n wil...
jy was especially evil la...
keep asking mi to eat n eat..even when i was full...
they they ordered the browin n ice-cream for mi...
really very paiseh la...sing the bdae song so loud until everyone turn to look at us...even another table also join in the singing la...
then worst is..they make mi lick the cream of the ice-cream n use my mouth to remove the strawberry...
was so unglam...hahah...
ppl were looking n laughing la...so embarassing!!!
mel was so sweet...she came up to mi n gave mi a nice sunflower la...really luv it...
then on the way out..they bought chocolates for mi too...
it was really great having such gd friends to celebrate my bdae with...
thank u guys...
tat was nt all...
had to rush home to change...
cos meeting the canoeist in the evening at suntec...
meet sarah earlier to shop abit..
we both were looking for bags...
but in the end we ended up geeting the same shirt...
haha...quite nice n cheap la...
shall wear it together one day...
then we went to marche...
my gosh...the q was so damn long la...think got to wait 1 hr man...
so we decided to switch location...
n we settled for fish n co...
waited damn long too..
jon, wk, wei min, huijie, mr chua, grace n hy came...
but they were late too...
say 7.30 in the end 8.30 then reach lor...
so ya..while waitin some of them went to buy bread...
then mr chua was so nice...
the fountain terrace they can flash msgs...
so he wished mi happy bdae on it la...
was so touched...hehe...
never imagine somebody wld wish mi happy bdae on it...
haha...
so while waitin for our food...all of us were so hungry...
then sarah CLEO mag got tis small sction on naughty moves...
jon, wk n huijie were so interested in it la..
dunno wat they were thinkin...
haha..
then the '4 man gang' n mr chua..dunno wat they were up to...keep passing the phone ard...
until i got giddy...
at the end of it..they all got mi smth...
mr chua got mi a espirt watch...
its like so nice n so ex..tat i din accept it at first..
but in the end took it in order nt to make him feel bad...
then wm made mi a card la...its so nice...
din noe his art n craft was so gd...
besides he also got mi a watch...
was really very touched for wat he has done...
but when i noe how ex the watch was..i really feel damn bad...
ya...so guess i'll give him a treat another day...
sarah also bought mi a bear..very cute...
really thank u everyone...
u really made mi feel very lucky on tat day...
i'm truely grateful for all tat u have done for mi...
i'm not a special somebody but ur made mi felt like one...
reali glad to have such great buddies like u...
FRENZ FOREVER...
then rushed home to cut cake..luckily reached home b4 12....
haha...
so i was realli very happy on friday...
never had so many friends celebrating with mi b4...
then got so many surprises...
thank u everyone...
tat night i had smiles on my face even when i sleep...
29/7 sat...
today woke up early to study one...
but in the end end up gettin so frustrated with everything...
loss my temper a few times...
hai..dunno wats wrong...
then cannot concerntrate...damn irritated...
so went out early...made my way to church...
but was a bit late anyway...
ya...after tat..cannot decide to meet the rest who went for concert...
so was wandering ard like a wandering spirit...
then took a bus back to tamp..
mug at 201 the mac with wm......
hai now its 2 plus...gonna sleep...
the origin.12:18 AM
i AM myself
alicia ang
19 yrs old
28th July 88
smps, hscs, tpjc, SIM- economic n management
likes:)
swimming, jogging, cycling, bladding, canoeing
reading, listening to music, dancing
chilling out with my friends
tpjc canoeing team ROCK!!!
tpjc 05S04 ROCK!!!
SIM Dragons rocks!!!
dislikes:(
ppl who are nt straight forward
ppl who pretend to be who they are not
being the middle person
being taken for granted
being left out
**wish list**
to get gd A-level results (my foot!))
to have FUN
to get a job ( ntuc Lhub)
to get my driving licence (got it)
to get my bag (been wanting to do so since the begining of the yr)
to chill out with my friends
to go clubbing as and when i like(like its ever possible)
to get into uni( got into one)
to be HAPPY (it has been so long since i'm really happy)
my voice
taggie
do tag when u visit...
entries;
myself;
shouts;
links;
my past;
Get awesome blog templates like this one from BlogSkins.com