i AM myself
I hate looking myself in the mirror,I hate knowing I have fear.
I hate seeing what isn't there,I hate feeling that I am scared.
I hate believing what isn't true,I hate believing and trusting you.
I hate crying myself to sleep,
Forgive me for I have dreams.
I feel left out and all alone,With no one to call my own.
My eyes are red and I cry blood,
Please help me or I'll cry a flood.
My friends see what I let them see,
If they only could see the true side of me.
And as I die inside with pain,
Please don't think that I'm insane.
Cause believe it or not I have a heart,
That's been slowly torn apart
Cant you see that i love you so?
Thursday, July 27, 2006
memories...
today seems like any normal day...
but i'll always remember tis day...
smthin special happened...
how i wished it lasted...
but it has all become memories that have faded...
over time i've got used to remembering tis day...
tat now its abit weird to juz forget it...
i noe i shld have given up on tis a long time ago...
we decided to let let go to lessen the pain...
but i wonder if i really can...
i went thru all the letters n e-mails today...
can't help it..cos its wat i'll always do on tis day...
i tried to nt do tat...
cos i noe it will only bring back all the pain n tears...
smtimes i wonder isit juz mi...
y do i have to take it so hard when u don't even give a damn abt it...
wat do i gain puttin myself thru all the pain...
reali...
i try so hard to keep the friendship between us...
y did i do tat...
are u worth all these pain..
suddenly remembered all the times we spent together...
all the promises u made...
everything tat u said...
it was really great memories...
although now all these were juz empty promises...
wadever it is,i noe i wil get stronger.
there's many other things i hav to get done..
the scars will always be there...
only time can heal these pain...
i shd be contented dat i was given a chance to love u..
i shd be contented dat i was given a chance to feel ur love.
i shd be contented we re stil friends.
i'll get over tis...
although u'll nt be looking at tis post...
juz want to thank u for everything...
heart-broken...
the origin.12:46 AM
i AM myself
alicia ang
19 yrs old
28th July 88
smps, hscs, tpjc, SIM- economic n management
likes:)
swimming, jogging, cycling, bladding, canoeing
reading, listening to music, dancing
chilling out with my friends
tpjc canoeing team ROCK!!!
tpjc 05S04 ROCK!!!
SIM Dragons rocks!!!
dislikes:(
ppl who are nt straight forward
ppl who pretend to be who they are not
being the middle person
being taken for granted
being left out
**wish list**
to get gd A-level results (my foot!))
to have FUN
to get a job ( ntuc Lhub)
to get my driving licence (got it)
to get my bag (been wanting to do so since the begining of the yr)
to chill out with my friends
to go clubbing as and when i like(like its ever possible)
to get into uni( got into one)
to be HAPPY (it has been so long since i'm really happy)
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