really a meaningful song...
dunno why every everytime i'm feeling really terrible...
i will chance upon this song...
anyway the lyrics to the song....
TEARS AND RAIN
How I wish I could surrender my soul
Shed the clothes that become my skin
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I run far, far away
find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.
I guess it's time I run far, far away;
find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
the origin.12:02 AM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
WEE KANG !!!
hate it...lost everything tat i typed...iritating...
the origin.2:47 AM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
after a long long time....
james blunt- tears n rain...
tis song juz speaks of wat i'm feelin now...
style="color:#ffffff;">finally i get to blog after such a long time
there was some problem with the previous skin...so i changed it
i noe its kinda sadistic
but i like it
maybe its juz how i feel right now
well...these few weeks have really been horrible for mi
been on a short fuse lately and i'm irritated so easily
dunno y...how i wish i can stop feeling so crappy
anyway...today itself was horrible
since th beginning of the day...been rushing from venues to venues
then during tutotials n lectures the teachers still want to rush n rush
everything is moving at such a fast pace
i'm really running out of stamina to keep up with it
hai
then when i get a breather
everything juz comes to a standstill
hope i won't break so soon
the gp test today was HORRIBLE
it was so didfficult tat i have problems even understanding the passage
ya..of course i did nt manage to finish it
feeling so frustrated over it
so juz as well..i hope i can at least get more thean 10 marks for the compre n nt fail as miserably as getting 0
haha
then after tat went to get week kang's gift
haha
then had lunch (late one
then sat n chit chat for a while
then i went home
well for a change i thought i can go home
to a nice n neat place where i can find peace
but when i opened the door
ya...everything was in a mess..waiting for mi to clear up again
tat really got mi very irritated
pls la...u have the whole day at home i really dunno wat u are doin...
so of course i pack lathen when ur come home...the first thing u say was
got vaccum properly a nt
got pack all the things properly or u juz dump everything there
no body ask u to pack lor
pls la..like when can i ever stand leaving the house in a mess
i din ask for any appriciation or wat
but come on la..i'm doing ur job lor
why dun i take over then u go back la
then i tot i can have nice dinner
in the end..tell mi ur all eat liao
then i ended up with instant noodles
ha
reali damn pissed off la
wat more tis is nt the first time
feeling really sucky now
shall wake up early tmr
n get on with my revision
there is juz so much to do
the origin.2:51 AM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
finally on the road to recovery...
ok...tis has nt been a gd wk so far...
well...to start of with i got really sick..
i tot rest a few day will recover but then...it only got worst...
on tue..went for national day celebration in sch...
it was alright...sang a few songs onli...
everyone was so enthu la...
haha
after tat...some of the class went to ecp to go wakeboarding...
luckily i din go...if nt i wld have died i think...
haha...
well went to mr chua's place for lunch...
had pizza...
although i was very unwell...but heck care went a head with the delicious lunch...
then by 2 o'clock i really cannot tahan already...
running a fever already...
so went hm...
then slept till 7 plus...
woah..when i woke up the feelin was really horrible la....
kept coughing, sneezing, terrible headache n sore throat...n the fever was still there...
so self medicate myself....
then went to slp again at 10 plus...
so there goes my whole tuesday...
wednesday was no better....
woke up at 8...
its been a long time since i slept so long...
muz have been really exhausted i think....
haiz...still in terrible condition...
then everyone started to nag at mi to see a doc...
well...wat the doc say really made mi laugh...
he said 'sick for so long now then come n see mi...might as well dun
come'....hahaha....
he really funny man...
then he very evil lor...give mi all the meds all drowsy one...
somemore got so many..
i take already really felt very sleepy la...
so as expected..i din get much work done again....
in the evening watch NDP at home...
the fireworks were really nice la...
how nice if i cld be there too...
then was very restless...
tried to do some work...manage to complete only a few questions...
die la...how to study lydat...
so...today is a sch holiday...
ya...luckily manage to wake up earlier today...
finally finish all the bio n chem tutorials tat i've to do...
yeah....
oh well...feelin much better today...though still coughing a little....
hahaa....
really very sian...
been mugging...but can't seem to concentrate...
very figidty...keep moving ard...
hai...went for tution juz now...
so now i'm going to do maths...
hopefully can complete a reasonable number of questions....
hai..so many b'daes are coming up...
really dunno wat to get for everyone...
its like one after another la...
elvin, wilson, pauline, elizabeth, sze yin, jieying....
haha...hope i dun go broke man...
okay i better get back to my work...
if only i cld turn back time...
the origin.11:16 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
ill...
i guess my body has gotten the better of mi...
ok...like my mom said 'if u continue lydat u'll fall sick sooner or later'
guess tat came true...
haiz...
horrible sore throat, running nose, fever n cough....
wah...all at once la...
yesterday felt a bit uncomfortable...but never expect to be so bad...
ok...hope i'll be able to get to sch tmr....
haiz...wanted to go swimming one...
but then sarah nt free...
cos she ,hy, wm n jon went for city harvest service at indoor stadium....
then tot abt going myself...
but then it started raining....
sian la...
nvm...so stay at home n rest lor...
nowadays really very boring...
trying to mug everyday...
yet i still got so much i have yet to cover...
i think i really very slow in learning la...
there is like onli 3 more wks to prelims...
muz really put in more effort...
mmm...been very easily irritated these few days...
like a bit will get angry already...
ppl at home are really testing my patience n temper...
nearly flared up on several occasions....
so will ur pls stop irrtitating mi...
dun really understand u ppl...i
in the past ur never bothered much abt the way i do things...
but now when i do exactly the same thing ur got so much to say...
so much to comment abt...
then if ur want to ask mi smth u can also ask mi directly..
y go thru all the trouble n beat about the bush....
dunno wat wrong with u ppl....
when i'm angry u say i'm fierce,
when i try to be nice, ur say i muz have an ulterior motive...
guess i'll leave u ppl alone....
as long as i've my peace...
sorry...din mean to vent my frustrations....
really tired...but already slp so much...cannot slp anymore le...
shall go n continue mugging...
living dead....
the origin.2:50 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
totally drained....
its been a week since i last blog...
this whole week was kinda hectic...
hai...really tired sia...
i wonder how ling can i last lydat...
can i make it till A s...
anyway...been studying everyday in sch...
everybody mugging like crazy...
whenever there is time...mi n pauline will always be in the library...
come to think of it...i'm a bit scared of the library now....
spe tis week was soccer...
haha..realy hilarious to see girls play soccer...
always a grp of people running after the ball...
somemore its only half a filed...
everyone who was watching muz have had a gd laugh...
then it started to rain but we continued to play...
but it was really great workout...haven't exercised so much for a long time...
haha...muscles started aching the very next day...
then on wed, ran 2.4km with pauline, sherlyn, clarie and mag...
yeh...pauline n clarie passed...somemore with silver....
glad to be able to help them tis time round...
sher n mag very upset cos they still have to retake...
so i'll stick with them till the end...
lets work hard together k...
then sometime tis wk i also signed up for the standard charted marathon 10km run...
mi, huiying, grace n sarah are taking part...
thanks to wei ming who made it so interesting tat we decided to join too...
haha...
then ber is also encouraging the class to take part in the FULL marathon...well it wld be nice if everyone will go for the experience...
but....
i still think its really nt worth to pay $30 plus to walk 42km...
unless ur really sure u are gonna run thru it...
but without trng n experience..i think it is crazy...
still of course i did nt put ber down...
ya...today got chem test...
been mugging for it like crazy...
in the end it was nt tat difficult..it was the nmr section tat was killer...
today is really a dead day la...
had papers after papers...then its fri n end so late...
after the test ms khoo still take her own sweet time to go thru...
wah...tat was the killer part....
so ended like at 4 plus...
then met jon, huiying, wee kang n wei min at airport the BK...
mugged till some anglican gals made noise abt not having places to sit...
so manager ask us to leave...
sian...
walked ard for a while..then decided to settle for subway...
anyway...tis week really spent a lot of time with pauline....
both of us feels the same way abt things i guess so we click more...
anyway wat i anticipated came true...
some friendships really dun last...
when someone better comes along they will surely leave u...
tats when the friendship is really put to test...
tat i've come to understand in the last few weeks...
so the weekends are for mi to mug...
hope i can go swimming with sarah on sunday...
raelly missed being in the water ...
where i dun have to be bothered about anything...
then next wk is national day le...
hopefully i'll have a better wk...
heal my soul body n mind....
the origin.12:14 AM