i AM myself
I hate looking myself in the mirror,I hate knowing I have fear.
I hate seeing what isn't there,I hate feeling that I am scared.
I hate believing what isn't true,I hate believing and trusting you.
I hate crying myself to sleep,
Forgive me for I have dreams.
I feel left out and all alone,With no one to call my own.
My eyes are red and I cry blood,
Please help me or I'll cry a flood.
My friends see what I let them see,
If they only could see the true side of me.
And as I die inside with pain,
Please don't think that I'm insane.
Cause believe it or not I have a heart,
That's been slowly torn apart
Cant you see that i love you so?
Friday, August 25, 2006
horrible days...
the past few days have nt been going well for mi...
starting with today...
argh... as a matter of fact...i returned home close to eleven today when tuition ended like at 9.50...
i missed one of the buses back to tampines...
then waited...for 30 mins plus,...
worst of all...it was so packed tat i cld nt even get on....
i was already very tired n hungry...juz wanted to get home asap...
so in the end i juz stomped off to take the train...
reach home so late...
as if it was nt bad enough tat i took so long to get home...
reached home onli to find tat they forgot to get my dinner....
wth la...told mi ur will buy then in the end never...
wat to do..make do with bread lor...n there were like only 3 pieces left....
great right ....
hai...then today really dun have the mood to study la...
dunno why also...juz felt so tired the whole day...
they my left shoulder is aching...
dunno wats wrong wrong with it also...
but its irritating la...
shall jus leave it for now...
okay...calming down....
as for wednesday...had the statistic test after school...
although i practiced n studied for it...
i think i won't do well at all...
i mean the paper was like can do one if u did study and practice enough...
aslo dunno wats wromg with mi...
the moment i started doing i even got my normal formula wrong la...as usual...i made a hell load of careless mistakes again...
i really wonder how i'm gonna pass maths...
these few days been sleeping a lot in school...
smthin which i seldom do...
but really very tired these few days la...
especially ms k n mr c class...
sleep like a log lydat la...
how at to do????
anyway...smthin has been bothering mi too...
i relaly dun have a clue about what i want la...
hai...talked to grace about it....
shall leave it lydat first....
okay better go back to study le...sat still got chem test....
the origin.1:15 AM
i AM myself
alicia ang
19 yrs old
28th July 88
smps, hscs, tpjc, SIM- economic n management
likes:)
swimming, jogging, cycling, bladding, canoeing
reading, listening to music, dancing
chilling out with my friends
tpjc canoeing team ROCK!!!
tpjc 05S04 ROCK!!!
SIM Dragons rocks!!!
dislikes:(
ppl who are nt straight forward
ppl who pretend to be who they are not
being the middle person
being taken for granted
being left out
**wish list**
to get gd A-level results (my foot!))
to have FUN
to get a job ( ntuc Lhub)
to get my driving licence (got it)
to get my bag (been wanting to do so since the begining of the yr)
to chill out with my friends
to go clubbing as and when i like(like its ever possible)
to get into uni( got into one)
to be HAPPY (it has been so long since i'm really happy)
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