i AM myself
I hate looking myself in the mirror,I hate knowing I have fear.
I hate seeing what isn't there,I hate feeling that I am scared.
I hate believing what isn't true,I hate believing and trusting you.
I hate crying myself to sleep,
Forgive me for I have dreams.
I feel left out and all alone,With no one to call my own.
My eyes are red and I cry blood,
Please help me or I'll cry a flood.
My friends see what I let them see,
If they only could see the true side of me.
And as I die inside with pain,
Please don't think that I'm insane.
Cause believe it or not I have a heart,
That's been slowly torn apart
Cant you see that i love you so?
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
today is jy's birthday....
haha..happy birthday to u my dearest friend...
was quite interesting today...
early in teh morning hongrui, pauline, daphne, amanda and mi we met up at jy's place at 6.40am...
so early la...
haha...wanted to surprise her at her place mah...
knowing that she scared of ballons we purposely use ballons....
wat was worst was that jy's mother and younger sister saw us la...
luckily they din tell her...phewy...
we burst quite a no. of ballons...tot she wuld know ...
apparently she was deaf enough nt to hear anything...haha...
okay...we were a litle slow n amanda n hongrui had to stall for time...
while pauline and daphne light up the candles on the floor....
haha...
we also had a cake which we amanda and daphne baked...
it was delicious la...
also we bought a bouquet of pink roses for jy too...
although it was hong rui who went to get the flowers...
erhm....erhm..
haha...
there is also a story behind the photos daphne took for hong rui n jy...really funnie sia...
i think it was a really pleasent surprise for jy...
hope tat she really like it...
we also made her carry the flowers and cake to school haha..
then mag and mel bought jy a pine of Ben n Jerry ice cream...
n she had to finish it on the spot...
ahahaha....
too bad la...we din mange to sabo her...
anyway ...happy 18th birthday girl...
hai..today is really a totally sian day la...
been so deprived of sleep...
even when i sleep i can sleep well...those very light form of sleeping...
hate it man...
then todauy in school i kept falling a sleep...
for the first time in my 2 yrs in tpjc i actually slpt for 1/2 hr in the library...
ahhh...total waste of time...
so now trying to make up for it...
still got maths test on wed to prepare for...
then on sat is chem test...
alsmost forgot all about it until wee kang reminded mi...
hai...
there is like onli 20 plus days to prelims...
how...how...how...
really really very stress now...
then people at home are gettin on my nerves too...
still i must persevere...
alicia...u can do it...must not give up...
jia you...
okay shall update another day...
actually i wanted to say much more than tis...but decided nt to la...
maybe when the time is right ba...
haha...
running out of time....
the origin.12:38 AM
i AM myself
alicia ang
19 yrs old
28th July 88
smps, hscs, tpjc, SIM- economic n management
likes:)
swimming, jogging, cycling, bladding, canoeing
reading, listening to music, dancing
chilling out with my friends
tpjc canoeing team ROCK!!!
tpjc 05S04 ROCK!!!
SIM Dragons rocks!!!
dislikes:(
ppl who are nt straight forward
ppl who pretend to be who they are not
being the middle person
being taken for granted
being left out
**wish list**
to get gd A-level results (my foot!))
to have FUN
to get a job ( ntuc Lhub)
to get my driving licence (got it)
to get my bag (been wanting to do so since the begining of the yr)
to chill out with my friends
to go clubbing as and when i like(like its ever possible)
to get into uni( got into one)
to be HAPPY (it has been so long since i'm really happy)
my voice
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