i AM myself
I hate looking myself in the mirror,I hate knowing I have fear.
I hate seeing what isn't there,I hate feeling that I am scared.
I hate believing what isn't true,I hate believing and trusting you.
I hate crying myself to sleep,
Forgive me for I have dreams.
I feel left out and all alone,With no one to call my own.
My eyes are red and I cry blood,
Please help me or I'll cry a flood.
My friends see what I let them see,
If they only could see the true side of me.
And as I die inside with pain,
Please don't think that I'm insane.
Cause believe it or not I have a heart,
That's been slowly torn apart
Cant you see that i love you so?
Thursday, August 10, 2006
finally on the road to recovery...
ok...tis has nt been a gd wk so far...
well...to start of with i got really sick..
i tot rest a few day will recover but then...it only got worst...
on tue..went for national day celebration in sch...
it was alright...sang a few songs onli...
everyone was so enthu la...
haha
after tat...some of the class went to ecp to go wakeboarding...
luckily i din go...if nt i wld have died i think...
haha...
well went to mr chua's place for lunch...
had pizza...
although i was very unwell...but heck care went a head with the delicious lunch...
then by 2 o'clock i really cannot tahan already...
running a fever already...
so went hm...
then slept till 7 plus...
woah..when i woke up the feelin was really horrible la....
kept coughing, sneezing, terrible headache n sore throat...n the fever was still there...
so self medicate myself....
then went to slp again at 10 plus...
so there goes my whole tuesday...
wednesday was no better....
woke up at 8...
its been a long time since i slept so long...
muz have been really exhausted i think....
haiz...still in terrible condition...
then everyone started to nag at mi to see a doc...
well...wat the doc say really made mi laugh...
he said 'sick for so long now then come n see mi...might as well dun
come'....hahaha....
he really funny man...
then he very evil lor...give mi all the meds all drowsy one...
somemore got so many..
i take already really felt very sleepy la...
so as expected..i din get much work done again....
in the evening watch NDP at home...
the fireworks were really nice la...
how nice if i cld be there too...
then was very restless...
tried to do some work...manage to complete only a few questions...
die la...how to study lydat...
so...today is a sch holiday...
ya...luckily manage to wake up earlier today...
finally finish all the bio n chem tutorials tat i've to do...
yeah....
oh well...feelin much better today...though still coughing a little....
hahaa....
really very sian...
been mugging...but can't seem to concentrate...
very figidty...keep moving ard...
hai...went for tution juz now...
so now i'm going to do maths...
hopefully can complete a reasonable number of questions....
hai..so many b'daes are coming up...
really dunno wat to get for everyone...
its like one after another la...
elvin, wilson, pauline, elizabeth, sze yin, jieying....
haha...hope i dun go broke man...
okay i better get back to my work...
if only i cld turn back time...
the origin.11:16 PM
i AM myself
alicia ang
19 yrs old
28th July 88
smps, hscs, tpjc, SIM- economic n management
likes:)
swimming, jogging, cycling, bladding, canoeing
reading, listening to music, dancing
chilling out with my friends
tpjc canoeing team ROCK!!!
tpjc 05S04 ROCK!!!
SIM Dragons rocks!!!
dislikes:(
ppl who are nt straight forward
ppl who pretend to be who they are not
being the middle person
being taken for granted
being left out
**wish list**
to get gd A-level results (my foot!))
to have FUN
to get a job ( ntuc Lhub)
to get my driving licence (got it)
to get my bag (been wanting to do so since the begining of the yr)
to chill out with my friends
to go clubbing as and when i like(like its ever possible)
to get into uni( got into one)
to be HAPPY (it has been so long since i'm really happy)
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