i AM myself
I hate looking myself in the mirror,I hate knowing I have fear.
I hate seeing what isn't there,I hate feeling that I am scared.
I hate believing what isn't true,I hate believing and trusting you.
I hate crying myself to sleep,
Forgive me for I have dreams.
I feel left out and all alone,With no one to call my own.
My eyes are red and I cry blood,
Please help me or I'll cry a flood.
My friends see what I let them see,
If they only could see the true side of me.
And as I die inside with pain,
Please don't think that I'm insane.
Cause believe it or not I have a heart,
That's been slowly torn apart
Cant you see that i love you so?
Thursday, October 19, 2006
graduation...
today(its past 12 so its yesterday...) is officially the last day of my JC life in tpjc. It just so magical how time really flies. It just seemed like only yesterday that i stepped into tpjc to begin my 2 yr journey...yet now the journey is coming to an end. Although i admit that i do complain abt coming to sch and all tat, i think in the future i'll miss coming to sch.
No more off gathering in the courtyard, no more national anthem n sch song, no more wearing of the uniform...
No more spending time slacking in the canteen, skipping classes and all the lame stuffs tat we always do...smthin tat i'll really miss...How i wish time didn't pass so fast so tat i can have more fun with my friends...
Still...i'm contened with all tat i have...i'm glad i made the choice to come to tpjc...if not i would not have gotten to know a lovely and unique grp of classmates. My class -05S04... really glad to have been able to spend my 2 yrs with you all...u really made life so fullfilling and meaningful...
Also if i had nt come to tp...i wld not have joined canoeing and got to know this bunch of great pals and all the great times we spent together...
haiz...after the exams we are really on our own already...that's y i dun want sch to end...the feeling of insecurity and loneliness not having my friends to lean on...not knowing i'm in a safe environment..
i was standing in the hall in one coner...watching everyone happily taking pictures... i saw how happy my class was...memories everyone is trying to capture...how i really wish everything was not coming to an end.
will we still keep in contact? will we still be close as before? i do not want to think...
the feeling of letting go is just not nice at all...
still...we have to move on in life...but i hope tat none of us will ever forget the times we all shared...happy or sad...rain or shine...
back to studying...
*some thoughts i had in mind*
the origin.1:20 AM
i AM myself
alicia ang
19 yrs old
28th July 88
smps, hscs, tpjc, SIM- economic n management
likes:)
swimming, jogging, cycling, bladding, canoeing
reading, listening to music, dancing
chilling out with my friends
tpjc canoeing team ROCK!!!
tpjc 05S04 ROCK!!!
SIM Dragons rocks!!!
dislikes:(
ppl who are nt straight forward
ppl who pretend to be who they are not
being the middle person
being taken for granted
being left out
**wish list**
to get gd A-level results (my foot!))
to have FUN
to get a job ( ntuc Lhub)
to get my driving licence (got it)
to get my bag (been wanting to do so since the begining of the yr)
to chill out with my friends
to go clubbing as and when i like(like its ever possible)
to get into uni( got into one)
to be HAPPY (it has been so long since i'm really happy)
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