Friday, March 09, 2007
wow..i wonder how long has it been since my last entry...anywa nobody reads my blog so its alright...haha..its also gd cos can say anything i want n by the time people realised it, i would have gotten over it...hahaha
well, although a month has just passed..a lot have taken place n it has got me thinking about a lot of things...
1) the a level results were released and to my dissapointment...i did badly...
seriously i didn't expect it to turn out so badly, even though i know will nt do so well...
felt like a total fool when i saw my results..all the hard work,time and effort it was like all for
nothin...(i know i shouldn't complain or regret for wat has happened already happend...no
point crying over spilled milk)...but really i juz can't help but feel terrible....
wat made it worst was knowing tat my mum was so dissapointed in me...its realli hard not
living up to wat others expect of u....
but like i told u before...dun expect too much out of me...
reali...n how would you feel to hear someone say 'u could have done much better if u had
actually put in more effort...then you dun have to be so worried now'
reali tell me how would hav reacted to it???
sadly it hurts...realli hurts...especially from someone who knows me best
and i have always thought u know i already tried, i even thought u wld comfort me(haha!)...
till today, i'm lying if i say i'm not upset about my results...
2) i know people change, but i reali dun want to lose another friend bcos of tis...
u were the one who was there to comfort me when i got my results, kept me company for the
whole day...yet 2 wks after it, it seems as though we hardly have things to say to each other
i reali wonder y??? have i distanced myself from u? isit my fault? one minute we were
chatting away happily on the phone for hours n next wat???
i reali dunno... reali dunno wat to think...
sometimes i reali hate myself for lettin all these happen...but i do hope things take a turn for
the better...
wat to do...all my friends means too much to me...
( it happend before n i won't let it happen again ... )
3) haiz...about the uni courses i have to choose its reali gettin on my nerves...
thinking about wat and how to put my choices...reali very 'fan' ...but wat to do...
face it la...lets hope tat i make the right choices now...
haiz...still life has to go on no matter wat happens...
we all live for the wat the future holds for us...so its important that we look forward and move on from the experiences and lessons we have gained from the past...
that is wat life is about...
hahah...on the lighter side of things...
haha i started my practical driving lessons already...and its reali fun...
although like all beginners i have some hicups...still its going quite smoothly,haven't knocked down anyone yet..(sounds familar huh...u shld know if you said tis)..haha
well...working at office have been quite slack these few days...haha..paid to slack, yesterday my boss even treated all of us to ice-cream...haha...wat more can i ask...hehe...
well dunno y tonite i feel especially emo...
reali felt like talking to someone but i juz can't get myself to make the call to anyone...
also i dunno who to call also...
(who wants to listen to me anyway..haha)
so tats y i'm venting all my fraustations here...
there is just so much that i want to say but i think i'll let it pass...
keep quiet n it will go away??
sorry if i'm being too long winded...
but dun worry..i'm stil hanging on....
hahah....yeh canoeing chalet nxt week...n i'm looking forward to it...
anway...to all those who were worried about mi...dun worry..i'm perfectly fine...haha...
**not everything goes ur way in life**
the origin.10:43 PM